interesting turns.

since november my life has taken many interesting turns. i guess i could say since july since that is when i moved, but from july to november where planned changes, crazy times and foreseen bumps in the road.

so as life has unravelled many 'things' as of late i have done my best to keep a brave face. i am an incredibly private person. if something truly has impacted me to my core you will almost always find me quiet as i move about my normal business.

over the past five months i have been stretched, stressed, impacted, torn down, built up, etc in ways i never thought possible. i have no details of my life to share since there are always things in your life you just should not make public. there have been a few more times lately where i get a little fed up with being strong, put together, having most of the answers and staying hopeful.

there are times where i do wish i had the personality to let go, be dramatic and/or go MIA for a bit. but i dont. i have a God given gift to constantly be pushing forward, pushing for better and to never settle. yes this can be a bit of damper if you are trying to live in the moment....however in times like these it is a life saver.

as of the past two days i have had the oddest feeling...so so many of my close, wonderful friends and bf have been going to through trying items in life. they are of significance but ones you know they will get through since they are the strongest people you know (i.e. break ups, losing jobs, getting a doctorate, etc)...since this has happened i have poured quite some time in to being there for them and being available and trying to be present for them. i am incredibly grateful for these people to let me into their lives. even if what you deal with can seem impossible, God tends to sent that reminder that you are not the only one going through things. we are truly never alone.