unusual.

life these past few months has been a bit surreal...so many changes, both internally and externally. i have found that it is my full time job to trust that God is going to take care of me and those i love EVERY day.

i actually fail at this every day. i think i am a little high strung and tend to stress very easily over things i cannot control. it is now time to let that all go. there is not enough room in a day to fret and think negatively.

i was a bit shocked the other day when i was talking to one of my close friends. we haven't caught up on the trials of our lives in a while and yet after a bit of conversing we found we were somewhat in the same position. both trying so hard to fix things, work towards things, idolizing things, trying to control everything, asking 'what else can i do? there has to be something more for me to do.'

this time when we talked God was present. Speaking through my friend, "Trust God. He can do anything and He needs to be priority and come first in life. He knows what's best for you and if you're obedient He will bless you." this meant so much more because i know my friend is still undecided about his belief in God. i went to bed last night feeling a little silly...woke up feeling great. my hearts still beating, i still have a purpose. gotta live each day, no matter what it may bring, until that purpose is revealed to me.