only four days

it has made me very happy today that its only a four day week. i have that inner-gut feeling that this week will NOT go by very quickly but instead drag on in reminding me that i am a full and active part of the real world.

but alas...this is life. i have just returned home from an enchanting 12 days in Spokane. yes...i used enchanting and spokane in the same sentence. christmas was wonderful, my family was beautiful as always and i got to spend time with good friends who are also in the real world so were still working in town. i don't know that i miss spokane, but i do know that i miss the people and the memories. when devin and i drove away on sunday we talked at length about how we weren't ready to leave this time and how the time we shared with the people we love just brought so much peace/joy to our lives.

i am now exhausted...spent little time sleeping over the past two weeks trying to balance still working and spending ample time with my family and friends...my mom calls it burning the candle at both ends. so after work i will do the grown up thing and grocery shop, start laundry and unpack and then will collapse into a heap on my bed and sleep a recommended number of hours.

i will post again this week of some of my favorite memories over the past week and a half but for now i want to end with the conversation devin and i had last night. devin has always been a blessing to my life because we either encounter things together or one of us has already walked that path. right now we are encountering being SO ANXIOUS together. for me: i have been in this new place for a little over six months and it has been quite easy (relatively speaking) and i never thought i would get to the point where i needed to pull myself back from thinking six months down the road. my good friend janna and i had a conversation about this a while ago and she bestowed me with some great wisdom. she was looking to two years down the road and she realized that she couldn't allow herself to waste those two years just because she was waiting for school to be done. so now...i pray and i push and dig at myself to not waste the next six months purely because of anticipation of what will happen next.