different times.

i have never had such a full and fulfilling three day weekend. that may be a gross exaggeration, however, my weekend was wonderful.

friday...i worked late, worked out and took an evening to myself. yes...i stayed in on a friday evening and LOVED every moment of it. wowie. i have never been so happy to just hang out.

since i stayed in my saturday was free to be so productive and so full! gym time, starbucks lovin and seeing an old friend. rory buck is the older brother i never had. he came to whitworth when he was much older than the average freshman and had seen more of the world than most of us dream too. without much detail of the great blessings i received from this man...i misjudged just how wonderful it was to see him again, let alone watch him swim. i have never met a man work harder for something, even after he was dealt many unfortunate cards. rory will go to the olympic trials in South Africa this spring and it is with great determination i pray that it turns out exactly how he wishes.

well...makenzie swift being the best friend joined me on driving to linfield, many winding roads and small towns but it was a good time. we found an airplane museum that has a water park with an enormous TV playing ESPN...we will venture back there. we had a danish dinner that night, compliments of my roommate and then ventured downtown for SO MANY hours of entertainment at a great bar called Berbatis. makenzie got her iPhone stolen...again. pissed was an understatement of her emotion and i was flat out annoyed that people pull such sh*t.

Sunday was a pitiful day as neither team i wanted obtained the coveted 'W'...eli biggest pansy ever manning has something coming for him next week when i hope they get stomped by the 49ers.

sunday night i drove down and surprised devin. i was not prepared for how much it would put my heart at ease as well. i love that boy and i hate to see the amount of pressure he is under, but he is working towards his dream. a short 20 hours was the best time i have had since returning back to the couv.

now that i have bored you with my mildly exciting life. i am off. cheers to life and God's blessings.

i want this dog....

fix you.

Is this all there is to life? How do I make the most out of this? How do you know if you have found the one? How do you get over being terrified to get married? When does God tell you if you will ever have that miracle you have been praying for? Why do so many things you cannot control have to happen all at one time?

What Matters

i have not been myself for two days now. i just wrote an entire post of what i am so unhappy with and what i am grateful for. then i got over it and deleted everything but the following sentence remained, "a God that is always there."

instead of spending any minute detail complaining about anything...i will instead pray about it, no matter how ugly the words i have to say are. i choose to believe/trust that God will take care of life.

only four days

it has made me very happy today that its only a four day week. i have that inner-gut feeling that this week will NOT go by very quickly but instead drag on in reminding me that i am a full and active part of the real world.

but alas...this is life. i have just returned home from an enchanting 12 days in Spokane. yes...i used enchanting and spokane in the same sentence. christmas was wonderful, my family was beautiful as always and i got to spend time with good friends who are also in the real world so were still working in town. i don't know that i miss spokane, but i do know that i miss the people and the memories. when devin and i drove away on sunday we talked at length about how we weren't ready to leave this time and how the time we shared with the people we love just brought so much peace/joy to our lives.

i am now exhausted...spent little time sleeping over the past two weeks trying to balance still working and spending ample time with my family and friends...my mom calls it burning the candle at both ends. so after work i will do the grown up thing and grocery shop, start laundry and unpack and then will collapse into a heap on my bed and sleep a recommended number of hours.

i will post again this week of some of my favorite memories over the past week and a half but for now i want to end with the conversation devin and i had last night. devin has always been a blessing to my life because we either encounter things together or one of us has already walked that path. right now we are encountering being SO ANXIOUS together. for me: i have been in this new place for a little over six months and it has been quite easy (relatively speaking) and i never thought i would get to the point where i needed to pull myself back from thinking six months down the road. my good friend janna and i had a conversation about this a while ago and she bestowed me with some great wisdom. she was looking to two years down the road and she realized that she couldn't allow herself to waste those two years just because she was waiting for school to be done. so now...i pray and i push and dig at myself to not waste the next six months purely because of anticipation of what will happen next.